let me write a little bit about my future plan.

unsurprisingly i do not manage to secure a co-op job this semester, so now i'm taking summer classes - intro to international business, strategic management, and intro to japanese plus work part time. little hectic, since japanese is a 1.5 month intensive class, but it's fun. i'm lovin' it.

since i did not get the job, i have to rearrange my plan a bit. if i do not get a co-op job this fall semester (seeking now), then i am going home for good in december and coming back here in june only for graduation ceremony. if i get a job, then i'm going to finish my classes in spring, and still graduating in june.

i'm a little bit sad - trading vancouver for surabaya, my boyfriend and friends here for family and friends in surabaya, my cute little apartment for a gigantic bedroom at my parents' place, school and part-time job for a full time job (if i can get any), downtown shopping for shopping malls, trips every semester break, oh my freedom! T_______________T

at the same time i know that i am done with north america. there's nothing else i can do here. i left my hometown back when i was 16. it's been 5 years full of ups and downs. sigh. time to explore (and enjoy) asia, i guess :|

now that i only have months left here, i only wish i can tie up some loose ends here and there before i leave. i just don't want to leave any unfinished business here.

love (and patience) will conquer ALL, right?

good night everybody.

i'm currently studying (again) for my commercial law exam tomorrow noon.

then my mom called.

she told me that my dad recently got operated to treat his heart. she called me after the procedure done successfully so that i did not get any panic attack. i suppose it is not a life/death matter, now that it's fixed. they found out when my dad had a difficulty in breathing. but still, it's his heart that they fixed :[

i did not say much to my mother. i told her i have to study for my final exam. this news shocked the hell out of me, though. i know it is not impossible, given that my dad is not the healthiest person in the world. i recalled i wrote a similar entry few years back about another sickness.

if previously i was contemplating about staying here for a bit after graduation, now i know i am so not going to do that.
i am going to go home (or somewhere closer to home) to be with my parents. i am not that brave to take the risk of not being there if something like this happen again. and i am not willing to take any risk when it comes to my mom and dad, really it's not worth it.

sigh. see, there are more important things in life that i have to focus on other than me, myself, and i.